6/3/2026: "hello world"

hello world. this is my first entry on this site's blog. I always find myself, at the start of things, overintroducing them because I feel like the first of something needs to be in some way basic to be built upon, or otherwise because I just don't know what it's supposed to be like yet. I want to try to avoid that here, despite already doing it. Starting now!

yesterday I had no idea how html worked and now I have my whole site cutomized and links set up between all the pages. that's cool. it's kind of addicting, actually. I can see why people like it. you get a surprising amount of control that you're not necessarily given by a site builder where you can just drag and drop, and while that makes things more complicated, it also makes it more satisfying and rickety in a way that feels somehow more human. if i forget to write /p at the end of this paragraph it simply will not exist. what a rush.

I like not capitalizing everything. it feels homey and comfortable. like I said on the home page, napstablook is something of an aesthetic northstar, and something about all lowercase smacks of their groovy little home, lying on the floor after dinner til we're floating in space. beautiful. evocative.

there's something that also feels intensely private about this, like a secret word document or diary, while simultaneously feeling celestial and big and open -- again, like napstablook's kitchen. I don't imagine anyone's reading this, and yet... maybe you are. it's not like social media, it's like stumbling into someone's secret hiding spot on the playground. we had such a nice one at my elementary school, this huge wooden castle thing with so many nooks and crannies. it felt like at any moment you could discover a tunnel or secret passage that wasn't there before. rumors spread about hidden rooms and doors. i remember finding my way into one, and the discovery that the tales had been true was like wandering into narnia. it was super infested with bees and they tore it down around the time I was in high school, and it's mostly parking lot and a little off-the-shelf metal playground now. I wonder if kids still have secret rooms to find.